care…or to be cared for…

what’s emptiness?
in my experience, it’s like today…
 
turn on my pc, watch as it loads windows out,
watch as it run all startup programs,
and…juz click on msn, and see who’s online now…
no more else to do…
 
i know, i had many things to do,
but right now, really have no mood for those…
watch as the screen fades, and up again my a touch on the touchpad…
i juz…keep on repeating this process…
that’s emptiness…
 
watch as my friends goin away, one by one,
i’m strting to feel sad…
i dunno what do that means…
does it means that, i really care about my friends?
or i juz dun wanna be alone…
 
i do not want it, but i juz couldnt help wondering…
where do this…mixture or emptiness and sadness come from?
and, what do i need now?
 
starting to blame myself now…
blame my…"whatever" attitute…
i seem to always tell myself that "i really shouldnt care so much",
that’s why this emptiness are comin for me…
 
i think…maybe…
i need some attention from other ppl…
although i know there are ppl who really cares about me right out there…
or maybe…
i need something, or someone for me to care for…
 
but again…
maybe i shouldnt take this in mind…
maybe…i really shouldnt care so much…
i have not much time left here anyway…
i’ll get pass these days, one way or another…even if i’m alone…

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  1. 美の欣

    hey    how r u??
    sth i wanna explain lar==    actually tad day i noe is ur b’day
    then i sms u..but u seem nth then i thought not ur bday wor   
    so nv greet u lor T_______________________________T
    so sorry      hahaha     wadever lar
    at least i remember ,right??  haha
    hope u r fine ok =)

    Jun 11, 2007 @ 8:13 am


  2. Violet

    BE
     
    optimistic……………….
     
    ~*Don’t worry be happy*~  ^^

    Jun 11, 2007 @ 10:25 am


  3. Violet

    http://nightworld.org/viewthread.php?tid=5699&extra=page%3D2
     
    funny thing~
     

    Jun 11, 2007 @ 10:32 am


  4. soh

    hey…
    fren…
    u still have me ya..haha…
    love is evrywhere if it is inside u heart..
    care with love ya!
    keep it up fren!

    Jun 11, 2007 @ 2:06 pm

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