sorry

suddenly, i feel sorry to many many people…
maybe i think too much, but…i feel like i let many people down…
maybe i really think too much, but…i think i did something very terribly wrong…
i created much confusion for other people…
and today, i feel that i should start to be honest…honest to my feelings…
 
i dunno…
i think i’m weak…really really not like a guy…
saying these may not be convincing, but…
sometimes, i cry alone at night…
mostly because the same reason…
 
i’ve been lying to myself and everyone all the time,
that i vowed to be optimistic…
sometimes, i really did it, in front of other people…but…
no one knows how’s behind the scene…
 
我不要听借口　我只想一人走掉  
把泪留在街角　我不过希望你会听到 
爱情化作　一片片冰雪单调 
不用你多说　我现在通通都了 
 
have been struggling for a very long time…
always thought that i’ll leave this place, without much grieve, but now…
waves and waves of sadness, pierced thru my heart and soul…
like…continuous tsunami attacks, cruel, and fatal…
i’m defenceless…i’m weak…
 
可不可以任性　求求你不要去
藏在我心里　最后一句　其实还爱你
 
i think not…
my world is now filled with darkness now…
darkness…suits me…perhaps…
no light, no hope…nothing…
 
你 你的温柔感动了我
我 忍耐太久内伤太重
在 这一秒我一定要说
就算失败 也不沈默
 
just one night, i really touched by you…
it’s nothing much actually, but you stayed late, just for saying g’nite to me…
touched…but sad at the same time…
i really cant believe how in a state i was…at that time…
and for now…not much difference…except without you now…
more…saddening…
 
there is something i really have to learn…
that is to express my own feelings…
and to open my heart…
now, i’m ready for it…but only for you…
dunno…will you be willing to…understand me more?
and…will you allow me to…care for you?
 
i’m scared…worried…
maybe, i made you feel complicated too…
but…i’m ready to tell you everything…
ask me whenever you’re ready…
 
我不要求什么　我只想不被打扰 
把爱留在街角　就当你永远不会看到 
记忆化作　极光出现那一秒 
我开始微笑　以后会努力过得　很好
 
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moodless now…
now, i only have the mood to talk to…only two persons…
this two person…hope that any one of them will come talk with me…

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