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care…or to be cared for…

what’s emptiness?
in my experience, it’s like today…
 
turn on my pc, watch as it loads windows out,
watch as it run all startup programs,
and…juz click on msn, and see who’s online now…
no more else to do…
 
i know, i had many things to do,
but right now, really have no mood for those…
watch as the screen fades, and up again my a touch on the touchpad…
i juz…keep on repeating this process…
that’s emptiness…
 
watch as my friends goin away, one by one,
i’m strting to feel sad…
i dunno what do that means…
does it means that, i really care about my friends?
or i juz dun wanna be alone…
 
i do not want it, but i juz couldnt help wondering…
where do this…mixture or emptiness and sadness come from?
and, what do i need now?
 
starting to blame myself now…
blame my…"whatever" attitute…
i seem to always tell myself that "i really shouldnt care so much",
that’s why this emptiness are comin for me…
 
i think…maybe…
i need some attention from other ppl…
although i know there are ppl who really cares about me right out there…
or maybe…
i need something, or someone for me to care for…
 
but again…
maybe i shouldnt take this in mind…
maybe…i really shouldnt care so much…
i have not much time left here anyway…
i’ll get pass these days, one way or another…even if i’m alone…

Jun 10, 2007 | Categories: All | 4 Comments »

四则故事, 四个哲学

1.誤會
 
早年在美國阿拉斯加地方,有一對年輕人結婚,
婚後生育, 他的太太因難產而死,遺下一孩子。
他忙生活,又忙於看家,因沒有人幫忙看孩子,就訓練一隻狗,
那狗聰明聽話,能照顧小孩,咬著奶瓶餵奶給孩子喝,撫養孩子。
 
有一天,主人出門去了,叫牠照顧孩子。
他到了別的鄉村,因遇大雪,當日不能回來。
第二天才趕回家,狗立即聞聲出來迎接主人。
他把房門開一看,到處是血, 抬頭一望,床上也是血,
孩子不見了,狗在身邊,滿口也是血,
主人發現這種情形,以為狗性發作,把孩子吃掉了,
大怒之下,拿起刀來向著狗頭一劈,把狗殺死了。
 
之後,忽然聽到孩子的聲音,又見他從床下爬了出來,
於是抱起孩子;雖然身上有血,但並未受傷。
他很奇怪,不知究竟是怎麼一回事,再看看狗身,
腿上的肉沒有了,旁邊有一隻狼,口裡還咬著狗的肉;
 
狗救了小主人,卻被主人誤殺了!
這真是天下最令人驚奇的誤會。
 
誤會的事,是人往往在不瞭解、無理智、無耐心、缺少思考、
未能多方體諒對方,反省自己,感情極為衝動的情況之下所發生。
誤會一開始,即一直只想到對方的千錯萬錯;因此,會使誤會越陷越深,
弄到不可收拾的地步,人對無知的動物小狗發生誤會,
尚且會有如此可怕嚴重的後果,這樣人與人之間的誤會,則其後果更是難以想像。
 
2.釘子
 
有一個男孩有著很壞的脾氣,於是他的父親就給了他一袋釘子;
並且告訴他,每當他發脾氣的時候就釘一根釘子在後院的圍籬上。
 
第一天,這個男孩釘下了37根釘子。慢慢地每天釘下的數量減少了。
他發現控制自己的脾氣要比釘下那些釘子來得容易些。
 
終於有一天這個男孩再也不會失去耐性亂發脾氣,他告訴他的父親這件事,
父親告訴他,現在開始每當他能控制自己的脾氣的時候,就拔出一根釘子。
 
一天天地過去了,最後男孩告訴他的父親,他終於把所有釘子都拔出來了。
父親握著他的手來到後院說:你做得很好,我的好孩子。
但是看看那些圍籬上的洞,這些圍籬將永遠不能回復成從前。
你生氣的時候說的話將像這些釘子一樣留下疤痕。
如果你拿刀子捅別人一刀,不管你說了多少次對不起,那個傷口將永遠存在。
話語的傷痛就像真實的傷痛一樣令人無法承受。
 
人與人之間常常因為一些彼此無法釋懷的堅持,而造成永遠的傷害。
如果我們都能從自己做起,開始寬容地看待他人,
相信你(妳)一定能收到許多意想不到的結果….幫別人開啟一扇窗,也就是讓自己看到更完整的天空….
3.且慢下手
 
大多數的同仁都很興奮,因為單位裡調來一位新主管,
據說是個能人,專門被派來整頓業務;
可是日一天天過去,新主管卻毫無作為,每天彬彬有禮進辦公室,
便躲在裡面難得出門,那些本來緊張得要死的壞份子,現在反而更猖獗了。
「他那裡是個能人嘛!根本是個老好人,比以前的主管更容易唬!」
 
四個月過去,就在真正努力為新主管感到失望時,
新主管卻發威了–壞份子一律開革,能人則獲得晉昇。
下手之快,斷事之準,與四月表現保守的他,簡直像是全然換個人。
 
年終聚餐時,新主管在酒過三巡之後致詞:
「相信大家對我新到任期間的表現,和後來的大刀闊斧,一定感到不解,
現在聽我說個故事,各位就明白了:「我有位朋友,買了棟帶著大院的房子,
他一搬進去,就將那院子全面整頓,雜草樹一律清除,改種自己新買的花卉,
某日原先的屋主往訪,進門大吃一驚的問:『那最名貴的牡丹哪裡去了？』
我這位朋友才發現,他竟然把牡丹當草給剷了。
 
後來他又買了一棟房子,雖然院子更是雜亂,他卻是按兵不動,
果然冬天以為是雜樹的植物,春天裡開了繁花;
春天以為是野草的,夏天裡成了錦蔟;
半年都沒有動靜的小樹,秋天居然紅了葉。
直到暮秋,它才真正認清哪些是無用的植物,
而大力剷除,並使所有珍貴的草木得以保存。」說到這兒,主管舉起杯來:
「讓我敬在座的每一位,因為如果這辦公室是個花園,你們就都是其間的珍木,
珍木不可能一年到頭開花結果,只有經過長期的觀察才認得出啊!
4.寬大
 
這是一個甫自越戰歸來的士兵的故事。
他從舊金山打電話給他的父母,告訴他們:「爸媽,我回來了,可是我有個不情之請。
我想帶一個朋友同我一起回家。」
「當然好啊!」他們回答「我們會很高興見到的。」
 
不過兒子又繼續下去「可是有件事我想先告訴你們,他在越戰裡受了重傷,
少了一條胳臂和一隻腳,他現在走投無路,我想請他回來和我們一起生活。」
「兒子,我很遺撼,不過或許我們可以幫他找個安身之處。」
父親又接著說「兒子,你不知道自己在說些什麼。
像他這樣殘障的人會對我們的生活造成很大的負擔。
我們還有自己的生活要過,不能就讓他這樣破壞了。
我建議你先回家然後忘了他,他會找到自己的一片天空的。」
就在此時他掛上了電話,他的父母再也沒有他的消息了。
 
幾天後,這對父母接到了來自舊金山警局的電話,
告訴他們親愛的兒子已經墜樓身亡了。警方相信這只是單純的自殺案件。
於是他們傷心欲絕地飛往舊金山,並在警方帶領之下到停屍間去辨認兒子的遺體。
那的確是他們的兒子沒錯,但驚訝的是兒子居然,只有一條胳臂和一條腿。
 
故事中的父母就和我們大多數人一樣。要去喜愛面貌姣好或談吐風趣的人很容易,
但是要喜歡那些造成我們不便和不快的人卻太難了。
我們總是寧願和那些不如我們健康,美麗或聰明的人保持距離。
 
然而,有些人卻不會對我們如此殘酷。
他們會無怨無悔地愛我們,不論我們多麼糟總是願意接納我們。
不論他們是怎麼樣的人, 祂幫助我們了解那些不同於我們的人。
 
每個人的心裡都藏著一種神奇的東西稱為「友情」,
你不知道它究竟是如何發生何時發生,但你卻知道它總會帶給我們特殊的禮物。
朋友就像是稀奇的寶物。他們帶來歡笑,激勵我們成功。
他們傾聽我們內心的話,與我們分享每一句讚美。
他們的心房永遠為我們而敞開。
 
現在就告訴你的朋友你有多在乎他們。

Jun 10, 2007 | Categories: All, 分享 | Leave A Comment »

work the way out

 
So Long time no read this kind of e-mail le.
I subscribed to this wensite,
so this website everyday also send my current
reading for the day…
I really felt like this somehow…
I feel…
that there really is only so much I can do…
Maybe I did my best, or maybe not, but still…
People really need to find the way out on their own sometimes…

Jun 09, 2007 | Categories: All | Leave A Comment »

something is missing…

after two days of major roadshow,
tired for two whole days…
tonight, dun have much energy to high…
 
juz feel…something is missing…
as i though after quiting my old job,
after i found someone that can accompany me to walk thru these days,
these…before school, before my departure, before i leave…these boring days…
 
yes, i did experienced some exitement for some time,
but now…
those emptiness are coming back…
and…they kept pouring in…with a hint of sadness…
 
so, i’m alone after all…
well…i’ll get used to it anyway…i guess…

Jun 09, 2007 | Categories: All | 3 Comments »

slow wretch

wretch blog are gettin very very slow lately…
dunno whats the reason,
and it requires member to read other ppl’s blog,
i wonder why…
 
i do not have a wretch member,
so…hehe, lets use s3o6 lo~ :P
 
more and more frenz using wretch le…
haiz~
juz make me more dislike that place…
 
two more rss feeds unto my list~~~

Jun 08, 2007 | Categories: All | Leave A Comment »

Jokes

Teacher: History is a very interesting subject. It tells you about what had happened in the past.
Student: Please teacher, I don’t think I want to study history.
Teacher: Why?
Student: There is no future in it.
………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………..
 
Teacher: Ted, if your father has $10 and you ask him for $6, how much would your father still have?
Ted: $10.
Teacher: You don’t know maths.
Ted: You don’t know my father!
…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………..
 
Mother: David, come here.
David: Yes, mum?
Mother: You really disappoint me. Your results are getting worse.
David: ? But I will only get my report book tomorrow.
Mother: I know that. But I am going to Hong Kong tomorrow, so I am scolding you now.
…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………
 
Father: Why did you fail your mathematics test?
Son: On Monday, teacher said 3+5=8
Father : So?
Son: On Tuesday, she said 4+4=8 And on Wednesday, she said 6+2=8. If she can’t make up her mind, how do I know the right answer?
………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….
 
A mother and son were doing dishes while the father and daughter were
watching TV in the living room. Suddenly, there was a loud crash of
breaking plates, then complete silence. The daughter turned to look at  her father.
Daughter: It’s mummy!
Father: How do you know?
Daughter: She didn’t say anything.
……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………
 
Girl: Do you love me?
Boy: Yes Dear
Girl: Would you die for me?
Boy: No, mine is undying love
……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………..
 
Man: How old is your father?
Boy: As old as me
Man: How can that be?
Boy: He became a father only when I was born
……………………………………………………………………………………………………………
 
Waiter: I’ve stewed liver, boiled tongue and frog’s leg.
Customer: Don’t tell me your problems. Give me the menu card.
……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………
 
Teacher: Simon, your composition on "My Dog" is exactly the same as your brother’s. Did u copy his?
Simon: No, teacher, it’s the same dog!
…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………
 
Father: Your teacher says she finds it impossible to teach you anything!
Son: That’s why I say she’s no good!
………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….
 
Teacher: "Where were u born?"
Student: "Singapore, Sir."
Teacher: "Which part?"
Student: "All of me, Sir."
……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………..
 
A teacher was asking her class: "What is the difference between ‘unlawful’ and ‘illegal’?"
Only one hand shot up.
"Ok, answer, Joan" said the teacher.
unlawful is when u do something the law doesn’t allow and ‘illegal’ is a sick eagle."
………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………..
 
Teacher: "How come you do not comb your hair?"
Ah Kow: "No comb, Sir."
Teacher: "Use your dad’s then."
Ah Kow: "No hair, Sir."

Jun 08, 2007 | Categories: All, 分享 | Leave A Comment »

Made in Japan

A Japanese man was in a hurry to go to the Subang airport, so he
took a Proton taxi. The taxi driver took his sweet time driving within
the speed limit but the Jap was getting impatient.
The following is their conversation on the way to the airport.
A Toyata Camry overtook the taxi…..zoom….
Jap: Look… look… Toyota!! …very fast!!! ….made in Japan!
       Proton… no good…. made in Malaysia
Driver: yah….
 
After a few minutes a Nissan overtook the taxi….zoom………
Jap: look…. look…. Nissan!!! …..very good!! very fast! made in Japan!
       Proton…. no good…. made in Malaysia
Driver: yah…. yah….
After a few minutes a Honda overtook the taxi…zooom.!
Jap: look…. look… Honda!! ….very GOOD!! ….very fast!! ….made in Japan!
       Proton… no good… made in Malaysia
Driver: yah… yah… yah….!
Arriving at the airport. Jap going to pay the taxi driver.
Jap: How much?
Driver: RM150/-
Jap: Oh… very expensive….. you overcharge!!?
Driver: No..No …. look…. look …. meter!!….very good!!….very fast!
            …. Made in Japan!

Jun 07, 2007 | Categories: All, 分享 | Leave A Comment »

Speeding old lady

An old lady gets pulled over for speeding…
 
Old Lady: Is there a problem, sir?
Officer: Ma’am, you were speeding.
Old Lady: Oh I see…
Officer: Can I see your licence please?
Old Lady: I’d give it to you if I could, but I don’t have one.
Officer: Don’t have one?
Old Lady: Lost it, 4 years ago for drunk driving.
Officer: I see…can I have your vehicle registration paper please?
Old Lady: I can’t do that.
Officer: Why not?
Old Lady: I stole this car.
Officer: Stole it???
Old Lady: Yes, and I killed and hacked up the owner.
Officer: You what!?!?
Old Lady: His body parts are in the plastic bag behind in the trunk if you want to see.
 
The officer looked at the woman and back away to his car and calls for backup.
Within minutes, 5 police cars circles the car,
the senior officer slowly approaches the car, clasping his half drawn gun.
 
Senior Officer: Ma’am, could you step out of your car, please!
 
The woman step out of her car.
 
Old Lady: Is there a problem, sir?
Senior Officer: One of my officer told me that you have stolen this car and murdered the owner.
Old Lady: Murdered the owner?
Senior Officer: Yes, could you please open the trunk of your car, please?
 
The woman opens the trunk, revealing nothing but an empty trunk.
 
Senior Officer: Is this your car, ma’am?
Old Lady: Yes, these are the registration papers.
 
The officer is quite stunned.
 
Senior Officer: One of my officer claimed that you do not have a driving licence.
 
The woman digs into her handbag and pulls out a clutch purse and hands it to the officer.
The officer examines the licence. He looks quite puzzled.
 
Senior Officer: Thank you ma’am, one of my officers told me you didn’t have a licence, that you stole this car, and that you murdered and hacked up the owner.
Old Lady: Bet the liar told you I was speeding, too…

Jun 06, 2007 | Categories: All, 分享 | 1 Comment »

busy busy busy

11pm baru reach home,
tomolo, day after also need to stay back late…
this weekend, 6 roadshows, with 3 big one…
wakao!!!
 
busy at office, busy preparing things,
and…walao, last setup’s report haven’t finished yet,
those damn dealers lo, walao, always delay our work.
sales report and delivery order only mah! so hard to fill in meh?
or is it very hard to fax?
 
6 places, 3 big events, 2 maxis centre are for broadband launching,
and…so stingy maxis, dun even wan to hire one crew.
they think we big company izzit?
last time say dun need us to do melaka roadshow le,
say got one big event organising company to do,
and now still ask us to do ah.
they still need us de la~
 
so shit lo,
they think we are big company? have so many manpower?
WE JUZ HAVE 4 STAFFS!!! boss inclusive…
wtf, unless we can split ourselves into two,
then we could be present on every site…
 
can’t even get some crew, part-timer to work for us?
treat us like what?
robot? or dog???
 
damn hate maxis now…
if werent they our main income now,
they think they can be so action?
they’ll pay some day…
 
–   /-
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Jun 06, 2007 | Categories: All | Leave A Comment »

少年 – 光良 & 曹格

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你又想起某个夏天 热闹海岸线
记忆中的那个少年 骄傲的宣言
伸出双手就能拥抱全世界
相信所有的梦想一定会实现
一切看起来都不会太遥远
转眼之间过了几年
轻浮的语言都已慢慢沉淀
即使难免会变得更加稀炼
我们不曾妥协
那是我们都回不去从前
幸好还可以坚持当时的信念
世界尝试改变 当初的那个少年
那是我们都回不去的从前
当你站在那个夏天的海岸线
我们还是心里面 那个偏执的少年

Jun 05, 2007 | Categories: All, 心情日记歌词库 | 1 Comment »

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